I have tried to lose weight all of my life, but it feels hopeless. I might lose a little weight, but then I gain it all back. Am I supposed to be fat all of my life? I don't feel like anyone would ever want me, and I hate to look in the mirror. I honestly don't know what to do, because it seems like everything I try fails.

From Archangel Azrael:

Quiet your mind. Quiet your body. Quiet your mind to see yourself the way we see you. When you see what we see, the conflict is clarified. When you understand that addiction to food is actually a conflict about existing in the human realm, then you will understand why you eat when you don't need to. To quiet your body you need to rid yourself of all "food noise." Food noise is food that does not nourish the body. If you are losing weight and gaining it back, then you are not fully understanding why you overeat. We understand this is very complex. Quiet your mind. Perhaps you don't want anyone to want you. Perhaps you are addicted to self-hatred. Can you look in the mirror and speak self love the way you are? If you cannot, this is the place to begin. You say you lose weight, so you know how to do this. If you gain it back then you have not resolved the underlying pain; you are waiting to go back to your pain when you endeavor to lose weight. Once you change, you must change forever, not because it is a diet and you are trying to get someone to want you, but because you have shifted your vibration enough to let something other than food fill your consciousness.

If you do not understand what we say to you now, please ask another question.

Be very cautious of fast foods and prepared foods. They are the addiction of the masses that threatens the world at this time. Be aware of which hungers you feed putting food in your mouth. Eating food has fed so many hungers other than physical hunger for so long that most people don't understand what real hunger feels like anymore. If you need to understand this, then sit with it awhile. Sit with your body empty, then you will begin to know how to feed it. You cannot control hunger if you are afraid of it. You will be unable to control anything towards which you feel fear.